Should be: "FIT BY '41, MAYBE '42" as in the YEAR 2042. Compulsive over eater, and it is hard to change old habits. Not giving up. Hip bursitis and plantar fasciitis have added to the difficulty but also to the necessity to shed the extra 80 pounds. Have to get over embarrassment of exercising in front of others because without some sort of exercise, I drop back into depression and coping with food. Including tracking calories thanks to free websites that make it doable. (Updated 2-22-12)
Saturday, February 25, 2012
Self Portrait 17
What's the difference?
The first photo: the mess really bothered me. What you don't see are the pile of dishes behind and pile of stuff on the desk to my right. You also don't see the debris of crumbs, dog fur, candy wrappers, and scraps of my son's duct tape on the floor that should have been swept up by my kids yesterday.
The second photo: pretty much the same mess but this time it doesn't bother me because in between I had exercised. I felt relaxed instead of anxious. I could focus on what needs to be done next instead of angry that it needs to be done at all.
My perspective changed, the mess didn't.
So, yeah, I know I'm not technically in the photo for today's "self" portrait, but self includes perspective as well as flesh and bone. I have learned that I must to do some sort of exercise to help me with anxiety and depression issues. The mess and never-ending to-do list have to wait.