Monday, February 20, 2012

Self Portraits 12-14

I've been avoiding forgetting to take daily pictures.  It's good to see where I'm at, but not always fun.  These three pictures are from my past week.  

Sleepless early morning, catching up on scripture study.
I chose to read by candlelight because I both like it and
 because we have no walls dividing our kitchen, dining,
and family room.  When I turn on a light, it floods
the hallways into the bedrooms.  Candles are softer.
I have a love-frustration relationship with the scriptures.  I was called to be a Sunday school teacher for 14-15 year olds.  It's good in the sense that I dedicate more time to reading and pondering the scriptures, but it's frustrating when I come across something that challenges my testimony, logic, and ethics.  

Every year, we teach a different book and rotate every 4 years:  Old Testament, New Testament, Book of Mormon, Doctrine and Covenants.  When I began teaching, I started with the O.T. over 2 years ago -- Ugh!  I'd be okay with some things then come across stuff that reminded me why I had been an atheist.  I've resolved to not take things literally.
Little guy Skye woke up later and joined me.
I loved having him with me while he worked on
his masterpiece.
Sending my first born on the "Klondike" - a camping
trip in the snowy mountains with his scout troop.  
 I look at the above photo and remember how we almost lost him at birth.  He was born at 36 weeks by emergency c-section with an apgar of 2 and GERDS.  He stayed in NICU for about 10-12 days and came home with machines we had to hook up to him -- oh, the awful tape that pulled at his skin.  He's 12 now.  Strong and healthy.  I can't believe I allowed him to go sleep in a freezing tent on the snow.  And I love him.
Presidents' Day -- It's our turn to post the flags in
part of the neighborhood.  It's wonderful to see the
streets lined with the flags.  (Hard to see in this photo).
Our church wants to make sure all the young people in the neighborhood (non-members and members, boys and girls, financially capable or incapable) are included in activities and camp-outs and pays for all of the fees (including Boy Scouts).  In return, the young men and women "work" for it by raising money and doing a flag service.  Neighbors donate money to the fund, and the kids put a flag up in their yard every patriotic holiday for a year.  I love being a part of this.


  1. I love the pictures with the candles! Really, really lovely and artsy! :)

    My first had an APGAR of 3, so I totally get it. We went through a bit of a time too. She's 13 (14 in June) now, and it's amazing to me! I'm glad you posted photos!

    1. Thanks, Kyra. This parenting thing can be so scary at times. I'm glad your little one is doing great.

  2. I love the idea of reading by candlelight...just don't think my eyes can do it. I'm trying it tomorrow!!!

    Stay focoused

    1. Joy! Hello! I thought I had been gone so long that no one would ever come back.

      The picture looks darker than it actually was. I hope it works out for you. :)

  3. Love that first pic!! Very serene.
    And there's A LOT of stuff in my "ask God about this" file - a lot.

    I've really slacked off on the self portrait thing. I mean, how many pictures of me at my desk does everyone really want to see? Just not feeling creative right now.

    1. Thank you, Jill!

      I know what you mean about not feeling creative. If I had to be creative, I wouldn't take any pictures. I think Kyra's picture project has woke me up from a fog of denial. I go about my day thinking I'm one way, and, oh, I am SO not.

      The scriptures-by-candlelight just happened to turn out nice. Mentally, though, I was going through something and wanted to capture it.

      I try to think, "Where am I today," and take the photo. It's not very creative, but it's me.