Birthday Pics

Count-down is complete; I've just celebrated my 42nd birthday.  It was wonderful, and I am so thankful for a loving family to share it with.  The blessings in my life are rich -- not monetarily, but being surrounded by people who love me.  (And I just realized I didn't have b-day pics taken with my parents!  But, I am so happy they've been able to move near us).  Everyone made sure I had a pleasant day.


When I began this blog, I was at the end of 39.  I had made it a goal of mine to get fit mentally, spiritually, and physically within a year.  I added a counter at the top of my blog.  So, am I fit?  No, but there are improvements.


When I was at the end of 41, I was also just at the end.  I was empty.  Not only was my body out of shape, but I was also mentally drained, and my spirit barely flickered.  Everything just seemed to be a struggle.


Someone may see I'm still overweight and judge, "Aw, she failed."


It's true I'm not the "image" of fitness, although it is better than a year ago, but, I'm not the same person I was a year ago, either.  You can't measure mental-fat-percentage or spiritual-fat-percentage.  If you could, you'd see those are leaner.


I used to binge when I didn't know how to deal with anxiety, etc.  I was mentally and spiritually depleted and too numb from the binges.  I don't have those binge episodes anymore.  Now I'm working on portion sizes and developing habits to listen to my body's stop signals.


I used to never plan meals.  That's still a hard one for me, but I do a lot more planning than I used to.  That brought me to my new blog "What Am I Supposed To Do With That?" where I've been teaching myself new vegetable recipes that my whole family likes (picky 5 year olds don't always count).


And I have so much gratitude.

Danny and Me

With Thomas, 11

With Marie, 9

With Skye, 5