We dropped the kids off at school, had a nice morning together, went to Deseret Book Store where I bought a book for myself and picked up the cake at the Lion House Pantry there. Danny took me to lunch (Mimi's Cafe -- mahi mahi with brown rice and veggies - yum). Picked up the kids. Everyone came over to celebrate, then dinner at my parents. Oh, yeah, and a "Dexter" marathon with Danny that night from Netflix (I don't watch tv, not even the news, but I do enjoy some Dex).
*When I began this blog, I was at the end of 39. I had made it a goal of mine to get fit mentally, spiritually, and physically within a year. I added a counter at the top of my blog. So, am I fit? Yes and no.
When I was at the end of 41, I was also just at the end. I was empty. Not only was my body out of shape, but I was also mentally drained, and my spirit barely flickered. Everything just seemed to be a struggle.
Someone may see I'm still overweight and judge, "Aw, she failed."
It's true I'm not the "image" of fitness, although it is better than a year ago, but, I'm not the same person I was a year ago, either. You can't measure mental-fat-percentage or spiritual-fat-percentage. If you could, you'd see those are leaner.
I used to binge when I didn't know how to deal with anxiety, etc. I was mentally and spiritually depleted and too numb from the binges. I don't have those binge episodes anymore. Now I'm working on portion sizes and developing habits to listen to my body's stop signals.
I used to never plan meals. That's still a hard one for me, but I do a lot more planning than I used to. That brought me to my new blog "What Am I Supposed To Do With That?" where I've been teaching myself new vegetable recipes that my whole family likes (picky 5 year olds don't always count).
I hardly ever prayed. But it has become so important to me to take quiet time and just be still and say what I'm thankful for, what is on my heart, and what I need help with. Then I listen. During the day I say several mini prayers of gratitude.
And I have so much gratitude. And I think I have enough mental fitness to know to never put another counter on my blog or life, again.
|Danny and Me|
|With Thomas, 11|
|With Marie, 9|
|With Skye, 5|